This marks the 5th blog post under Hammie the Hamster category, also is the last entry. Hammie passed away yesterday night, on Valentine's Day.
Feb 14, 2012
Woke up to prepare for Chean's Valentine's bento box but the first thing I did was to check on Hammie; that's become part of my daily routine, knocked on his cage, called his name to make sure he's still there. Hammie had been really ill lately, since I noticed a lump on his chest 2 weeks ago. Cancerous tumor the Internet said. Asked couple friends of mine and they said the same thing too. I cried, because there's not much I can do; he's old and hamsters' life spans don't often reach their full potential. I knew that and I thought I'm well-prepared for that yet it hurts still.
Chean enjoyed his bento a lot and went to work on time. I cleaned up everything and went to check on Hammie again before heading back to catch some sleep. He's breathing, although very weak. He seemed wobbly and lethargic all the time and he had lost tremendous of weight. Eating less and playing less. It's so painful to see him go through so much pain, to be honest, we thought about sending him over to the vet for euthanasia. But he was still affectionate and wanted to do stuffs, still climbed up & down, still ran on his wheel from time to time. I don't think I have the right to take away anyone's life, even Hammie's. So we thought to observe him for about 2 weeks and see how things go.
Woke up from a nap, rushed to Hammie. Actually two days ago, I noticed that the lump on his chest's getting smaller and I thought one of my birthday wishes is working its magic, but soon his eyes had crusted shut and he was essentially blind; it took him much more effort to eat and drink. I called him couple times but no response. He was sleeping/hiding inside the igloo hideout, I knocked the igloo three times. He moved. Phew, Hammie's still here. Then I filled his feeding pot with more food and snacks and went to work on my stuffs.
Looking at his bad health condition, we kinda knew that it's going to happen soon, it should be these two days I told Chean. We're so afraid that Hammie will leave us while we are traveling, so I once said to Hammie please let me be with you if you are leaving us for good. And Hammie did. Just when I thought I had the most wonderful V-day, Hammie took a silent departure and left me with his empty cage.
#1 Peacefully sleeping inside his favorite igloo hideout.
#3 Miyaki saying goodbye. He has been behaving real odd yesterday. He seemed depressed and not so active as he usually is; we thought he wasn't feeling well or being upset that we will soon send him to pet hotel. But well, I think he knows thing before us.
#4 Chean made Hammie a tiny box. We buried him deep under the ground behind our yard, together with his favorite snacks.
Feb 15, 2012
Woke up for no reason, kinda miss Hammie. I know, I know, he's just a hamster, but he'd been such a cute companion. Although he bite, although he didn't like to be touched, although he only loved to be in his safe cocoon, he's still very loving to me. It's odd not to hear Hammie running around on his wheel in the midnight, though I used to complain the rumbling noise a lot. It's odd to not see him playing in his cage anymore, though I used to complain his cage smelled pretty bad during summer.
#5 I hope he is at peace and running around on his wheel again in Hamster Heaven...
#6 I miss you so much Hammie... Hope you had a wonderful life with us.
Bye bye, Hammie...