** Updates on May 25, 2012 **
Boohoo... Thank you all for making me feel special; it's beyond touching & my eyes were brimming with tears while reading through all the heartfelt notes, comments & wishes (T____T) Never knew that BS can actually mean so much to all of you... Sending you love again & wishing you the greatest happiness in your life too! Also, just FYI, I won't be update my Facebook & Twitter as often as I used to, don't wanna hypocritically announce this blogosphere retreat yet still being overly active on social media sites; however, I'll still post stuff there occasionally, especially knowing you all are real excited to meet Bao Bao. So feel free to subscribe to my Facebook public updates, or follow me on Twitter or WeiBo. Yes, I'm revealing my WeiBo account for the very first time because you guys are truly the best! Stay in touch (＾ｰ^)ノ♥
It’s an overwhelming compulsion; I mean this official Good Bye and this last BS post. It’s also a well-assessed thought rather than a spontaneous impulse. To be strictly accurate, I’ve been planning for this blogosphere retreat since last Oct right after I learned about my pregnancy. Drafted this 2 weeks ago and supposed to finalize it before Sunday but as I carefully revise every single line, I add more words to it, trying to find the right vocabulary that’d precisely express my thinking. More importantly, I wish to make this an earnest one instead of keeping everyone hanging and wondering around. If this turns out to be a super wordy one, the perfectionist side of me should be blamed. Ya, you hear me right, I'll freeze this blog. Maybe just for three months, maybe a year or maybe longer. I'm not sure but it's going to be a long vacation for BS...
I started blogging when I first moved to the States in 2007. BS was born during the time when many mistaken me as a frivolous housewife who’s just looking for a way to kill time. True to a certain extent but not really (you just have to continue reading to hear my assertion). I blog for only one simple intention: to share my brand new life with my family & friends in M’sia. Somehow, I got kinda absorbed in it and decided to keep this virtual space as my online journal & personal diary, kind of... Not turning myself a full-time blogger but I’m committed to it. So I blog about everything, my life, my relationship, my studies, my trips, my shopping goodies, my stupid thoughts… literally every single thing that revolves around my tiny world.
Then… Time flies in a blink of an eye… and guess what, I’ve been blogging for about 4 and a half years now yet it feels just like yesterday that I was sitting in front of my lappie, drafting and generating a blog post...
#1 Dec 2007. Oh, the super young & carefree Beverly 1.0, haha (*^_^*)
#2 Feb 2008. Celebrated my birthday with Chean for the first time after 4 years long distance relationship. Now you know my age, ya, 21.
#3 June 2008. Never liked Summer until I met Portland.
#4 July 2008. School started finally! The MBA program opens up a large number of personal development goals and opportunities.
#5 March 2009. A moment that I'll never forget. Welcome to the family, Miyaki!
#6 April 2009. Feel so contented and Portland started to smell like home, even just with them both.
#7 Sept 2009. And we did actually own our first home :D
#8 June 2010. After spending all excruciating hours on endless researches & assignments in two grueling years, I waved APA writing format goodbye, with a flying kiss some more.
#9 July 2010. Fresh start. We moved to Boulder, CO, a place we called home now.
#10 Sept 2010. Added a new label on BS called Hammie The Hamster.
#11 Jan 2011. A kick-start in advertising industry, was working as an Assistant Account Executive.
#12 June 2011. Working psychologically hard & got my hands full with the wedding things. Crazy schedule. Flew back to M'sia, visited Taiwan and had our pre-wedding photos taken in Tainan.
#13 Sept 2011. It's official! Chean & I are traditionally considered husband & wife although we actually registered for our marriage in Miami, in 2006. O.M.G, that's 6 years ago and I was only 22 :p
#14 Oct 2011. I am P.R.E.G.N.A.N.T~~ *drumroll please*
#15 Jan 2012. And Miyaki Baby just turned 3 this year.
#16 Feb 2012. Fragile Hammie fared us well (T_____T).
#17 Feb 2012. Our second trip with Bao Bao; the first was Aspen.
#18 May 2012. Chean gets older, my baby bump becomes bigger (37 weeks preggie) and Miyaki hair grows longer... Every thing is changing incrementally but life is still as beautiful as always.
Looking back at all these entries and rerunning all these fond memories bring tears into my eyes. It’s been an utter bliss, a divine devotion of time for the past 4 and a half years of my life. You know, they said it's just a blog, why so serious? Well, I'm not serious about blogging actually, it's just a pastime-turned-habit thingie but I'm serious about my life, and my blog is a place where I store wonderful things about my life. Thus I don't want to take things lightly (again, it's the perfectionist side of me that's playing its ruse). Many may see BS as a bragging, bimbotic & self-absorbed blog of nobody (then why are you still reading?), but to me, it's a happiness-sharing platform to those who need a friendly reminder of how beautiful life is. I myself need that too especially, from time to time.
As BS gains more traffic and attention, it also attracts a great wave of jealousy and hatred comments from haters & anonymous readers, to be extremely frank, I get so tired of it. I know some of you may covertly think "Oh, she's lucky because her husband got her back and support her in any way she wants. She's nothing without her husband," which I'm not going to deny; I luck out in love. However, great fortune in relationship often comes with a price too, in my case, it's the unconditional love & support I contribute throughout these years that makes me the luckiest person on earth. Nothing comes free in this world and my life has its ups & downs too, just that I always choose to look on the bright side. Positivity rules. Anyway... Although I loathe the fact that I have to explain myself all the time, that's not the main reason that drives me to this decision because the awesome readers always outnumber the bad ones; it's my inner self who craves for an escape, a break, and a breakthrough.
I want to do something else. Maybe finish writing my book (still stuck on that bloody page 26, sigh), it's on the top of my to-do list. Maybe learn to be a good mum & a good wife; maybe work on the mini project Chean & I once brainstormed, maybe travel a bit, maybe kick start on my career, maybe do nothing but L.I.V.E. Just doing one thing at a time. Life is a process of ongoing incremental change and I don't want to miss a thing, not even a second.
So, for whatever reason that brings you to this blog, whether you are a recent supporter or a long time faithful fan of BS, I sincerely appreciate you taking time out of your busy schedule to hear me blurting my heart out all these while. To put it bluntly, I’m just a complete stranger to many of you although there’s an inexplicable connection between us that you & I have established throughout the years, thank you for showing me that genuine virtual friendship does exist.
While I heavyheartedly ending this post, H.E.R.E is something little I made yesterday (kinda silly though), an appreciation as well as farewell pressie for all of you who're reading this. Maybe I'll be back once I've figured out what I wanna do and get back on track with the newborn.
So long, BS-ers! I'll miss you for sure ❤❤
"Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things."
— Robert Brault