While packing for Boulder, I noticed that I had tons of magazines quietly stacking on my bookshelves, on my dressing table and even in the bathroom. Vogue, Elle, Seventeen, Nylon, Vivi and Popteen, tons of them. Due to the expensive moving cost, I packed them into 6 medium boxes and trashed them into a 3-ft tall recycle bin before I moved to Boudler.
Of course, I kept some of my fave magazines and have brought them here. But I've tossed approximately 90% of all of them. Heartache, not because of the magazine itself but the great amount of this enormous expenses which are unnecessary. Out of the 90%, there are around 20% of them are unpacked, I didn't even get a chance to run my fingers through them.
This has made me feel quite nostalgic. I remembered I did the same thing too 3 years ago before moving to the States reunion with Chean. Instead of throwing them away, I gave some to my sis, my cousins and my friends, and then I donated the rest of them (about 100 copies of Cleo, Vivi, Popteen & etc) to my favorite hair salon; the lady boss even gave me a free hair treatment that day.
Now the history seems repeated itself and I finally came to realize that I've been sick of the way people constantly telling me what to wear, and most importantly, the feeling of inferiority instilled in every page that keeps hunting me. I need to be skinner, I need to be fairer, I need to buy this to make myself looks better, ohh, maybe try this and maybe do that. While searching for a way out to express myself through fashion, I think I've lost myself far before I achieved that.
From the moment I left all those magazine in Portland, I told myself I want to wear things that will make me feel like myself again and will make me enjoy wearing them.
Well, that doesn't mean that I will stop buying magazines. Fashion magazine is still the state of the art, but instead of trapping yourself into that fashion businesses & contributing profit margin to the publishers, perhaps you need to step back and take a look at yourself, do you want all these for yourself, for real? Or you just want it for the sake of the trends? I mean, floral jumpsuit and jeggings are not for everyone.
So, R.E.B.E.L and challenge the status quo you fashionista!